So sitting beside the window on a rainy day with a warm cup of coffee, hearing the melodious sound of beautiful rain drops falling over my plants in the balcony, am contemplating about my favorite subject life. Although not even close to being an expert, my mind is stuck on this subject since the time I have known myself.
My life, as I think about it, had been filled with question marks about mine and this world’s existence. Not that I got all the answers, but I find it hard now to question anymore.
Looking down the memory lane, those days when I danced in front of mirror for no particular reason. Those days when I played sports filled with passion and sweat. When I spent a rainy day strolling and enjoying swings in the park with my friend. When I walked beside the guy I fell for. When I wrote the code very first time, which I thought I never could. When I jumped off the plane, an exhilarating and frightful experience completed with seeing beautiful world hanging down from a parachute. Those cherished moments, although they come and go makes me not question anymore.
The passion, love, hurt, success, failure I feel makes me live a life with no question. I have those days when I am so happy that I feel I can fly and those days when I am hurt so much that although my eyes might be dry, but my heart feels like tearing into hundreds of pieces. And each of those moments seem precious to me.
I don’t have much command on my success or failures. I have seen failures more than successes. More heartbreaks than I ever dreamed of. But not a single failure has gone by without teaching me something important in my life. I wish sometimes I had not gone through those hurtful days. But as much as they were painful, am not less thankful for teaching me worthwhile lessons and making me a little wiser each time. I still look forward to each day with a new hope and a new dream in my eyes.
Life might not have given me all the answers, but it surely has given me lot of passionate moments. Those smiles after sweat and pain, makes me want to relive those moments again. I am giving my best shot at this life and I promise to continue do so. Doing so, so that at the end of it my life does not demand any answers from me.
No wonder am in love with this beautiful rainy evening, as it takes more than just a cup of coffee to put it all out in words. Well, all I can say is that I cannot stop asking for more!